This or that?

I do have a person from the past whose willing to right his wrongs. We've stayed up various nights just talking, laughing, wondering the 'what if', just cracks me up in the sense that he's someone who remembers me before it went downhill. I laugh endlessly thinking back about the person I used to be and who I am now, it's true when they say, "you'll be laughing about this 10 years," cause sure as hell I am. 

He asked me, what my baby daddy would have to do in order for me to take him back and honestly I wouldn't know because I can't think of anything. I've given that so-called man 5 years of loyalty and a son and he hasn't done anything to prove his worth. They say that having kids by various men isn't something to brag about but I read a post that said the first guy was just to see if you can have kids and I thought that was hilarious. I guess a major move that he would have to do is cut ties with his family, and I mean everyone. I can't stand them, makes my blood boil, better analogy Davy Jones wouldn't even want them on his ship. 

I know I shouldn't care anymore but at the end of the day he was my longest relationship, I gave a lot to that man but he did take a lot, too. I can't see myself happy with him because it doesn't last, there's no consistency with that man but I don't know how I would another woman being with him, and the thought of him being intimate with someone else. 

But on the other hand this guy has had his fair share of the world, I mean this guy has collected bodies like no other, but he's willing to treat me how I should've been treated in the first place. And I know its cliché but he said his biggest regret was not fighting for us and I agreed, he knew the situation I was in and he was persistent in telling me that I was walking into a straight red flag. And his mother likes me, which is a plus and she has no negative comments on the fact that I have a son by someone else, she too help raise two kids that weren't hers, and that takes guts for either a man or woman to take care of kids that aren't theirs.